Recently I had lunch with a friend I met on Twitter. And yes, we really are friends. We happen to have met on Twitter but we are now friends in real life. We connected through Twitter, met a few times at events and became friends. It doesn't happen often for me but it does happen.Mostly I … [Read more...]
Take Me.
Today I have a visitor. It will soon be time for me to go home. Where that is I have yet to figure out exactly, but I am on my way. But for today I am focused solely on one thing - my time with Jackson.I haven't seen Jackson since I came here. So much has happened that I don't really know how it … [Read more...]
The Truth.
I am feeling better. Well, that's not exactly true. In many ways I feel worse. The pain is greater and the reality of my situation is smothering. But at least I am feeling something. And often now there is clarity which is a change. I still get overwhelmed. The confusion and chaos take over. … [Read more...]
Deep.
The overwhelming sadness and despair has consumed me. It has been ages.Time has both stood still and gone on forever. Just now am I beginning to see small cracks. Often they are too much and I sink back again. Hope can be its own demon. My room at the hospital is cheerfully … [Read more...]
Release.
My life is a mess. It has all blown up. I am drowning. I am tired. I don't even know where to begin. I am so alone. And confused. I don't think I can do this anymore. I dream of disappearing. Woosh. Gone. I don't think about where I would go or what I would do or what would happen to those … [Read more...]
Surplus.
I sit, just staring. I don't know how long I've been here and I don't really care. After all, it's not like anyone is missing me. Everyone is taken care of. I have been rendered surplus in my own life. This latest revelation shocks and consumes me. I can think of nothing else. When I dreamed of … [Read more...]
Weekend Update – Mothers Day
Campbell WilliamApril 9, 2001 5:28pm 7lbsCuyler JamesNovember 13, 20026:48am 7lbs 7ozGeneva ElizabethJanuary 12, 20074:40pm 8lbs 3ozThose are the dates, times and weights that my babies entered the world. When my life changed and transformed me into who I am today.Today … [Read more...]
Reclaim Your Mother’s Day
By Maija from maijasmommymoments.com "Did you keep the receipt?""I think so. Don't you like it?""I hate it. I can't believe you would buy this for me."Any other mother in the entire world would have faked a smile and a thank you and tucked the purse away for strategic appearances that … [Read more...]
helplessness
There seems to be a frightening rash of suicides in our community. More than ever or just more discussed and made public through social media? Hard to know. But one case is too many, so I want to dedicate this post to helplessness.Helplessness is defined as lacking protection or support, … [Read more...]
Do All Women Take On Too Much? Really? I need to know….
Last Wednesday I coordinated a party for women entrepreneurs in Toronto and I was up til 2 am the night before with my husband stuffing gift bags and fine tuning power point presentations. That morning my 1.5 year old son woke up at 4 am because he has no manners (okay I joke, his newest teeth … [Read more...]