Today I am 46. For months this number has bothered me. Closer to 50 than 40. Old. Middle-aged. How fortunate I would be if 46 is middle-aged. How lucky I am to be another day older. These are my thoughts this morning. Yesterday, a wonderful family that I know was robbed of their husband and … [Read more...]
Being There
We have a routine on Tuesday nights. I go to a spinning class for an hour with my girlfriends and one of their husbands, who shall now forever be known as Chef Spaghetti, makes dinner for our kids and then for us after class. (Yes, I live in Pleasantville.) Will loves it. I love it. Well, okay I … [Read more...]
Joan Rivers Dies At 81
We followed along with her as the sometimes host of “The Tonight Show” and the star of the hilarious television series “Fashion Police”. Having Joan on the red carpet was always a treat and she never failed to keep audiences laughing along with her. Comedian Joan Rivers has passed away today after … [Read more...]
Death Becomes Me
A few weeks ago I was telling some new friends about my obsession with reading obituaries. This isn't a depressing habit. I'm not dressed in black, listening to the Cure on loop and dreaming of my demise. On the contrary! I probably spend half an hour every weekend pouring over the obits. Weeks … [Read more...]
The Journey to Death
How can I know about dying and how I want to live my journey if I don't open myself up fully to the experience? As I watched my sister-in-law this past summer and now my good friend go through the deaths of their mothers, as I hold their hands, share my wisdom and cry tears of loss and gut … [Read more...]
Alice
My dog died the other night. It was shocking but not surprising considering her fulsome life. I basically eulogized her here, so I will not again (ok a little bit) but as the category above suggests, this indeed was a life event. Two things stood out about Alice’s passing. First, my eldest son, … [Read more...]
Feeling It All
Yesterday my mother-in-law asked for some French toast. I was more than pleased to quickly beat an egg with some milk, and a dash of salt and vanilla... butter in the pan makes it puffy and golden. Anything she wants. Anything at all. I dropped a few fresh raspberries on top. Maple syrup in the … [Read more...]
The First Sorrow
The death of a mother is the first sorrow wept without her. ~ AnonymousIt will be one year this weekend since I said goodbye, since I held her hand, since I saw her face. It will be one year since I leaned on her, since I cried on her shoulder, since I had my best-friend. It will be one year since … [Read more...]
Where You Least Expect It
Things have been tough recently. Most of you know this. Yet in the middle of all of this there are some beautiful things. Like my friend Karen dropping over dinner and wine or Katie sitting with me while I cried or my kids' teachers and school principal offering support or a fellow hockey mom, … [Read more...]
Live the rest of your life in 30 days
The other day while waiting to get in to see my family doctor I was reading an article in the waiting room and I have not been able to stop thinking about it since. It was about a woman who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in her early 40s. The cancer had already spread and it was not … [Read more...]