Infidelity has always existed. Lately it has created some steam within this blogging community.We all live by some deal breakers. In time and with some life experience, some of them are modified, even thrown out and some of them are held onto even more tightly. There are many things each of us … [Read more...]
That Night.
The Hospital fundraiser was everything Joel hoped it would be and more. There was networking, and socializing and I was his perfect accessory; elegant, intelligent, and able to entertain myself. The whole night I felt outside myself. Who was this person? How had I spent so many years believing this … [Read more...]
Wife.
As I pulled into the driveway of my home I started to realize the enormity of what I had done. I had crossed a line and could never go back. I was suddenly feeling far less confident about my choice, my clarity and commitment were suddenly lost in a haze of insecurity and self-doubt. But this … [Read more...]
After.
I knew I would feel this way. I was prepared. I chose this. But, somehow actually feeling it is way worse. I hate myself but at the same time I am renewed and happy. Who does what I have done? Who makes a conscious decision to destroy their family? Who ever really chooses themselves?I feel little … [Read more...]
The Dream.
That night I had a dream. I am sitting in a wooded area on a bench, hidden from view, watching all of the people stroll by. I am there alone but am content to soak up the sun and just observe. I am taking it all in when I hear a familiar child's voice shouting, "Mommy!" and I turn to see my two kids … [Read more...]