Things finally blew up with Joel. One evening after the kids were in bed I decided we couldn't go on like this anymore. We hadn't spoken more than pleasantries for ages and when I tried to pin him down he would get up and leave saying, "just get better" as he walked away. I followed him around … [Read more...]
Strength.
Well, the honeymoon is over. The peaceful days after my release from the hospital are gone as I have been gradually weaned off most of my meds. That numb oblivion has been replaced by my harsh reality. I am coming back to the realization that my life is a mess and I have no idea how to fix it. But … [Read more...]
Surplus.
I sit, just staring. I don't know how long I've been here and I don't really care. After all, it's not like anyone is missing me. Everyone is taken care of. I have been rendered surplus in my own life. This latest revelation shocks and consumes me. I can think of nothing else. When I dreamed of … [Read more...]
Notes on infidelity-grass is grass
Infidelity has always existed. Lately it has created some steam within this blogging community.We all live by some deal breakers. In time and with some life experience, some of them are modified, even thrown out and some of them are held onto even more tightly. There are many things each of us … [Read more...]