Campbell William
April 9, 2001
5:28pm 7lbs
Cuyler James
November 13, 2002
6:48am 7lbs 7oz
Geneva Elizabeth
January 12, 2007
4:40pm 8lbs 3oz
Those are the dates, times and weights that my babies entered the world. When my life changed and transformed me into who I am today.
Today was the day we celebrate all moms. I think today was my most favourite Mothers Day since I became a mom just over 10 years ago.
Today was the day we celebrate all moms. I think today was my most favourite Mothers Day since I became a mom just over 10 years ago.
I received the handmade gifts that I look forward to each year.
The kids got to pick out and purchase cards for Gramma and Nana. Cuyler insisted that this was “THE VERY BEST” card for my mum.
And it was. She loved the fact that she had her choice of 5 preset fake hip hop songs to choose from. On the birthday card. (note: her birthday is in March)
And it was. She loved the fact that she had her choice of 5 preset fake hip hop songs to choose from. On the birthday card. (note: her birthday is in March)The best gift I could have received was one I was not expecting.
Sean secretly took all of the old videotapes of the boys and got them transferred onto disks (we updated the camera when I was pregnant with Eva). That was his gift to me.
I spent Mothers Day watching old videos of my boys as babies. Watching myself as a totally different mother. Watching through different eyes.
Watching myself as a mother of one. Seeing myself pregnant. Watching myself give birth…wondering as I watched it at what exact time did he sustain his brain injury…
Watching my boys meet each other for the first time. Watching myself breastfeeding. Hearing Cam’s tiny toddler voice, seeing his cherubic face before it was smattered with freckles.
Remembering back to when life was pretty simple. Watching myself, not knowing what was to come. The depression. The autism. The hemangioma.
Sean secretly took all of the old videotapes of the boys and got them transferred onto disks (we updated the camera when I was pregnant with Eva). That was his gift to me.
I spent Mothers Day watching old videos of my boys as babies. Watching myself as a totally different mother. Watching through different eyes.Watching myself as a mother of one. Seeing myself pregnant. Watching myself give birth…wondering as I watched it at what exact time did he sustain his brain injury…
Watching my boys meet each other for the first time. Watching myself breastfeeding. Hearing Cam’s tiny toddler voice, seeing his cherubic face before it was smattered with freckles.
Remembering back to when life was pretty simple. Watching myself, not knowing what was to come. The depression. The autism. The hemangioma.
It was really wonderful to watch. It wasn’t sad or bittersweet. It was great. I loved seeing that part of our life. When I wasn’t jaded by experiences.
I actually laughed at the videos of a 2 year Cuyler stimming just like the 8 year old Cuyler does.
So many fun memories.
And god was I skinny after 2 kids. That third kid just did me in.
In any case – I credit this blog to my ability to really enjoy those videos.
I write about my life as a mother every day. I write about the good, the bad and the downright shitty. I appreciate my life as a mom and feel as though I get to celebrate that each time I reflect and write about it.
I write about my life as a mother every day. I write about the good, the bad and the downright shitty. I appreciate my life as a mom and feel as though I get to celebrate that each time I reflect and write about it.
I have 7 more disks to get through. I wish I had 22.5 hours to just sit and relive all of those great (and not so great) moments that brought to to where we are today.
That would be like a whole day off – just to watch videos. That would be nice…
Maybe next year.
Maybe next year.
Happy Mother’s Day
I think your gift from Sean was the perfect one-
he initiated, he took something sentimental and made it more accessible, he did it without direction! Very lovely
great post
and I agree about blogging- it makes me appreciate
What an excellent gift!! Wow, lady… isn’t it amazing what changes 10 years can bring? Amazing.
I’m so glad you enjoyed a splendid day, mama – here’s wishing you that 22.5 hours to watch the rest really, really soon!! xox
what a wonderful thing for Sean to do for you, so very thoughtful !
Glad you enjoyed a day of memories
and who you are today……. is just spectacular
Happy Mothers Day to you.