These past few weeks/months have been some of the most challenging we’ve ever dealt with. Mostly with Cuyler, but life in general has been pretty bumpy.
His behaviours are at a high. His stimming is at a high. It is now spilling into school. He is testing us beyond our limits.
I wonder if we need to look into meds again. We were told by the psych we saw in the summer that Cuyler was not a good candidate for meds – the possible side effects outweighed the possible benefits.
The issues we were dealing with then have gotten worse. Is it hormones?
I have no idea. I am at a loss. If there is a biochemical component to all of this, could we find relief in medication? My gut says no, but I will never leave a stone unturned.
The problem with keeping on top of our biomedical/naturopathic approach is that we have run out of money to continue the costly protocol.
Dr visits are covered. Naturopath visits are not.
Drugs are covered. Supplements are not.
It’s stressful to say the least.
My routine is that I check on each child, fix their blanket, press a kiss on their head and then crawl into my bed. As soon as I lean back into my pillow – an immense feeling of peace washes over me. Peace and gratitude. All my kids are safely tucked into their warm beds. My husband is alseep beside me. We are all together under one roof.
The quiet. The peace.
It’s the one thing I know will find me each night.