These past few weeks/months have been some of the most challenging we’ve ever dealt with. Mostly with Cuyler, but life in general has been pretty bumpy.
His behaviours are at a high. His stimming is at a high. It is now spilling into school. He is testing us beyond our limits.
I almost feel like we are heading into crisis mode. I am reaching out to the school for help. I’ve called a few different agencies for help and support.
I wonder if we need to look into meds again. We were told by the psych we saw in the summer that Cuyler was not a good candidate for meds – the possible side effects outweighed the possible benefits.
The issues we were dealing with then have gotten worse. Is it hormones?
I have no idea. I am at a loss. If there is a biochemical component to all of this, could we find relief in medication? My gut says no, but I will never leave a stone unturned.
The problem with keeping on top of our biomedical/naturopathic approach is that we have run out of money to continue the costly protocol.
Dr visits are covered. Naturopath visits are not.
Drugs are covered. Supplements are not.
It’s stressful to say the least.
I wonder if we need to look into meds again. We were told by the psych we saw in the summer that Cuyler was not a good candidate for meds – the possible side effects outweighed the possible benefits.
The issues we were dealing with then have gotten worse. Is it hormones?
I have no idea. I am at a loss. If there is a biochemical component to all of this, could we find relief in medication? My gut says no, but I will never leave a stone unturned.
The problem with keeping on top of our biomedical/naturopathic approach is that we have run out of money to continue the costly protocol.
Dr visits are covered. Naturopath visits are not.
Drugs are covered. Supplements are not.
It’s stressful to say the least.
That said, for some reason, for the past few weeks my respite finds me every single night.
My routine is that I check on each child, fix their blanket, press a kiss on their head and then crawl into my bed. As soon as I lean back into my pillow – an immense feeling of peace washes over me. Peace and gratitude. All my kids are safely tucked into their warm beds. My husband is alseep beside me. We are all together under one roof.
My routine is that I check on each child, fix their blanket, press a kiss on their head and then crawl into my bed. As soon as I lean back into my pillow – an immense feeling of peace washes over me. Peace and gratitude. All my kids are safely tucked into their warm beds. My husband is alseep beside me. We are all together under one roof.
It doesn’t matter what the happened that day or what awaits tomorrow.
The quiet. The peace.
It’s the one thing I know will find me each night.
The quiet. The peace.
It’s the one thing I know will find me each night.
peace is good. Christine – i’m telling you it is likely hormones. The changes in Scotty have been over the moon lately and I was told that yes, it’s hormones. So many challenges.
It’s really all we have when we’re in “the depths”. The simplest, small awareness that sleeping children, a snoring husband and a moments peace are deep comforts. It is the point of the power of now, this moment, I’m OK. Ideally, the moments of peace stretch on to become hours, sometimes even days. I’m thankful that you can find comfort in the quiet times 🙂
So inspiring that you find such peace in these simple and yet so fundamentally important things. I feel your pain about struggling to find the right supports for Cuyler. I am in the middle of a very similar struggle at the moment. It is frustrating and disheartening. We only want to do what’s best for our children, right? And sometimes the system that’s supposed to help seems indifferent at best. HUGS to you, Christine. Keep feeling the solace of those quiet connections with your loved ones.
it’s frustrating that the health care system is so backwards. we should be preventing, not treating. i think a kiss on the forehead goes a long way 😉
One foot in front of the other… one step at a time. Yes. Find your moments where the calm is, and relish it for a while… it’s the only way. Hugs to you, friend. xox