I can’t believe it. My Baby is almost 1. I’ve been referring to her as my “newborn” for so long, and now she’s on the verge of becoming a toddler – just like that.
I just started weaning her from the breast, and I’m having a tough time. This time around, it’s more emotionally charged. I know she’s my last baby, and nursing her has been a fantastic experience. She took easily to breastfeeding, and over the past year, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed and treasured our tender moments together, feeding and cuddling. Those moments allowed me to focus on her and only her, amidst the chaos of noise of her older siblings.
But, I’m ready. Ready to have my body back. Ready to go out for more than 2-3 hours at a time without feeling stressed. Ready to step out of the baby bubble and move on to the next phase.
So far, the weaning has been going okay. She’ll take a bit of milk from the bottle, and from a cup too. I’m still feeding her in the morning and night, which I’m not ready to give up just yet. However, this in-between stage of weaning is wreaking havoc on my hormones. I feel “off” all the time, bursting into tears at random moments, getting more angry than necessary my husband (unfortunately for him, he bears the brunt of a lot of this) for immaterial things, and just not feeling like myself. I don’t remember it being this way with my Girl. I don’t know what it is this time, but it’s really tough.