When I became a mom for the first time six years ago my world was turned upside down. I was a very anxious mom to be – I worried about breast feeding, I worried about sleep. I worried, worried and worried some more until I woke up with a baby in my arms and my tummy cut open by emergency c-section.
I couldn’t sleep in the hospital and I couldn’t sleep when I got home. I begged to stay in hospital but my husband said I would be okay. I had my first panic attack when I was in my bed with the baby I brought home beside me in a bassinet. I did what I could to feed him but the nurses had me scared about cluster feeding because my son would not stay awake while I breast fed him. I was completely, absolutely freaked out. I wet his face with a face cloth to keep him awake. I undressed him in a exhausted state trying to keep him awake so that he would eat enough.
Somehow, I made it through that night – longest night of my life with massive anxiety. If I had seen this video six years ago I would have felt less alone. Postpartum depression sucks but I survived. Six years later I have 2 beautiful boys and fantastic mom wisdom under my belt. I feel braver now. I hope new moms watch this video.
What wisdom do you have to share? Please share it with the freaked out new mommies of the world. 🙂