Whew. I had my appointment and all is well. The mammogram didn’t turn up anything suspicious and the ultrasound indicated a benign lump. The surgeon assured me that all was well and that dense, lumpy breasts are common in women my age. He said it would get better after menopause. So these wacky hormonally driven mood swings and physical symptoms are peri-menopause, not puberty all over again.
MENOPAUSE! I’m not that old yet. How is it possible that I’m 40 and heading into menopause.
I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on my life since last week’s scare.
It seems like yesterday I was playing with my sister and mom at the cottage.
Wasn’t it only last month that my friends were throwing me a surprise sweet 16 party (OK, I’m not 16 in this photo but I don’t have any of the party). Just the other day I was fired up about my political science courses….I was going to change the world. And, to be honest, I
partied networked. A lot. I really liked to go out in Toronto. I also traveled extensively. Life was great.
Then, I changed careers, attended Teacher’s College, met my husband, moved to Temagami, became a step-mother, went through fertility treatment (more on that later), had twins, and now I work full time in a town far, far away.
So here I am, a few weeks past my 40th birthday, wondering where the time went. I’ve done a lot but it seems like it’s gone by so fast. That’s why I have to slow down and, to use a new age cliche, live in the moment.
Menopause doesn’t seem so bad compared to the alternative.
As S & F would say “today is a good day”.