“You just call out my name and you know wherever I am I’ll come running to see you again.” ~James Taylor
This has been a rough couple of months for me. I won’t go into the gory details. And, to be honest with you, I am not really sure how it all happened. All I know is I feel naive and vulnerable and confused. How pathetic, eh? I have been experiencing something I (arrogantly/naively) thought could never happen to me. I got screwed.
I always saw myself as savvy and on top of things so this really took me by surprise. I trusted someone and…well…they were not trustworthy. Luckily for me this “someone” was not my husband or a friend or family member. Luckily for me I have had a huge support system to fall back on.
So, that brings me to the lyrics of this song. Today as I stared out my office window wondering how the hell I was going to get through this I lost myself in the way the wind was blowing the leaves and suddenly the James Taylor classic “You’ve Got a Friend” popped into my head. Yes, I may have been reading Eat, Pray, Love over the last month or so which may have given such wackiness a bit of an open door.
But, still. This did seem like a bit of a sign. Maybe only from deep within myself but still, a sign none the less. This sign was telling me “you are not alone you idiot. Look at all of the people who have been there for you! You have lots of friends. You have a wonderful, loving family, and tons of support. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and get back on track”. It’s true. Whenever I needed someone, they were there for me. Just like in the song, “all you gotta do is call”. And call I did and call I will likely do again before this thing is through. But, at the very least I know that I can and that makes this situation a lot less crappy.
“Ain’t it good to know you’ve got a friend”?
Heidi Lansdell says
Hi Jen – bad luck, you poor thing. I have an “inkling” what happend, but could be coming from left field. Suffice it to say, you have my 100% support.
Website looks great – took a while to get used to but it is growing on me.
Keep up the great work!
Natasha says
Well, I’m sorry to hear. Really, I am. But it makes me feel like I’m in good company. I think that’s what happens when you’re a genuine person. Don’t let this make you so guarded that you stop being you. Because you’re so much better a person than so many women we know in your position. In my humble opinion.
(BTW, what’s so odd about James Taylor striking your thoughts? James Taylor has hugged my heart many a sad day.)
HUG,
N.
bittersweet says
You’re smart to look for the positive, Jen. Truth is, shit happens. The only way to turn it around is to learn from it.
Good luck.
cll says
Jen:
It sounds like this experience has taught you a valuable lesson, and luckily you are smart enough to realize what it is. A couple of years ago I went through a really rough patch at work, and the counsellor they sent me to see asked me what lesson the experience taught me. I realized that I was learning about putting my family first, because if it weren’t for needing to help support them, I would have definitely quit my job. Instead, I sucked it up, kept going to work every day and just kept moving forward. It sounds like you are doing the same, and you have a new found appreciation for the people in your life who really matter. Hopefully in the long run all of the short-term pain will have dissipated and you’ll be stronger than ever. Until then, take care.
Candace