It occurred to me this week I never really look at myself. All of a sudden I will notice something that has been there and I never saw it because life is so busy and besides my dad used to say “navel gazing makes for idiots” translation- spending too much time thinking about ourselves makes for shallow people.
My thumb has been sore but I did not really think about it much- a thumb is such a small thing.
I was washing my hands the other day and scrubbing hard trying to get some paint off and I saw my sore thumb for the first time and it was a bit shocking. It looks so different from the other thumb. How can I have not noticed this? It is on the body that I live in every day.
Now this means zero to everyone my age who has had real aches and pains or health concerns but it made me think about age because I am thinking it might just be a little touch of arthritis. It is ok of course to have this little thing but all it made me think was that I am getting older.
and I don’t want to be alone.
and I want to be allowed to be a little weak here and there. Sometimes being strong all the time is just exhausting.
It is just a thumb. But I don’t want to be alone.