I’ve been thinking about my last few weeks of posts, and they seem to all be in a bit of sad, reflective, moaning (and not in a good way) kind of tone. I’m a ‘funk’ girl. I regularly go through periods where I feel a combo of any if not all of these…
a. ugly
b. unloved
c. lost at sea
d. void of humour
e. alone
I totally recognize when I’m going into one – I’ll generally email my girls and say ‘look out, I’m hitting one of those funks’. The good news is I know that when I’m in one, I’m going to come out just fine on the other side but I need to ride the wave.
I’ve for SURE been in one the last month or so – likely brought on by the ‘lost weekend’ aka friend with outdated passport not making a scheduled trip to TO and the fact that it’s fall, and around the time I lost my mom.
But Thursday night – my babysitter sent me this text…
“Hey – my boyfriend wants to know if he can come with me tonight to play with Will. F%#$ your kid is loved.”
Profanity and all…it was the sweetest text ever. EXIT FUNK
As I drove over to a friends on Friday, I was at a red light and I thought to myself, ‘Wow – I’m really happy right now.’ I secretly (well not so secretly now) loathe Facebook updates that are all ‘god my life is great’ – ‘wow my hubby is the greatest and my kids are all straight A, guitar playing, clean their rooms without asking, perfect kids’ – GAG. Ugh that deserves a second GAG.
But, this weekend – as I exited the fall funk – I really thought about what an amazing life I have right now. My kid is ridiculous (in a good way) and, as Sarah said, is well loved by many. And so am I. I own my own home. My family is healthy. I have a job that I don’t loathe. My co-workers are very, very funny people to spend time with. There is a future out there that I’m totally psyched for. I have a very supportive family. I do not have a goiter (like I thought I was developing last week).
I may not have a partner yet…but somehow it almost feels like it would be too much going right – like, then ALL my ducks would be in a row and does anyone deserve all of that?? So for now, I’ll enjoy the challenge of figuring out that aspect of my life while I ride the wave of excellent that is over taking the rest of it.
So if I haven’t nauseated you already with my ‘woohoo life is good’….let me ask you about your funks? Do we all have them?
**Did I mention in my ‘woohoo’ list that my kid is hilarious. Saturday afternoon I’m on the phone and hear his maniacal laugh and he comes around the corner…’in mummy’s te-te shoes’ and thinks that is pretty much the most hysterical thing he’s ever done.
Cheryl – I cannot TELL you how much this comment means to me! Thanks so much. (Well not the part about you having hit the shitter…but you know what I mean!!).
This is by far one of my most favorite blogs. As a single Mom of a 2 and a half year old little girl I RELISH hearing about other survivors not just surviving but THRIVING.
I also relish knowing they’ve hit the shitter and are having a low day. Thank God I’m not the only one.
Thanks for keeping it real and helping me feel not QUITE so alone in the working world of single Moms.
Good post!! Indeed woman, your life is blessed. When the rough times hit, hang in there, kitten.
My alias is Grumble Girl. ‘Nuff said, methinks.
No cancelling Christine….and I do the same on the hiding part…although there is one friend of a friend whose updates are SO over the top that we’re sort of keeping a top 5 list of the most ridiculous and it makes me HOWL….(glad it made you smile…:)
Oh and I may or may not have hidden some fb friends who blow rainbows out their butts via their status updates.
I’m in one. We spoke of it earlier.
I actually just stopped crying for the night and reading your post just put a big ole SMILE on my face!
And I cannot even tell you how excited I am about Saturday so you cannot cancel!
Oh Erin! I hope you’re coming out of it – that’s a long one to have. Big hugs…
Thanks Janet! He is a total ham!
I think I’m just coming out of a really, really long one. Six years long. I don’t remember if I went through them before, I don’t think so but I tend to view the past with rose coloured glasses these days. I’ll have to ask some friends that have known me along time.
Always had funks…always will. But enough about me – damn Will is cute! He looks so proud of himself wearing your “te-te” shoes.
I definitely go through funks. Most irrational or hormonal but every bit as real. I too know I have to ride the wave but sometimes I get frustrated with myself and want to yell, “SNAP OUT OF IT!” Then, just as quickly as it came, it’s gone.
And my husband and children celebrate.