Ugh. It’s the cherry on top of a steaming pile of crap. My garage door didn’t work tonight. I’ve paid to have it fixed already. Honestly a week ago – this would have pissed me off but tonight – tonight…I’ve HAD IT!!!! Enough already. The tears are a flowing.
Do you ever have those weeks where you feel the universe is out to get you? I’m having one of those. Last week, I had an issue at work – one that really upset me. To avoid being the Dooce of my company, I won’t go into more details. But I was upset and the ego took a few hits.
This weekend, I had a friend coming in from the States. Yup, same one I went to visit a few months ago (and no – that’s still about all the deets I have for you). We’d planned this weekend for ages – I had tenth row centre tickets for Ray Lamontagne. Will was going to hang out for a bit and then spend the weekend at my sisters. Well, he got to the airport and his passport was expired. Done. Months of anticipation down the tubes. I’m not sure that I can ever remember being that disappointed. Needless to say, the weekend was a constant – “I should be doing this right now” etc. And to top it off, Will was a pill the whole weekend. Isn’t it incredible how they feed off our moods??? I was a miserable beyotch all weekend and he was my equal! No naps – three tantrums before 9am on Sunday. Suffice it to say it wasn’t exactly how I had planned the weekend to go.
Here’s an admission and as selfish as it sounds – I just really, REALLY wanted a weekend where the focus was on me and not on Will. Is that awful? God it is awful to say isn’t it. As much as I was looking forward to the concert, I was more looking forward to the rest of the weekend, to just being a grown up and exploringe the city with someone who was interested in what I have to say and not what I fed my kid that morning. Make sense?
The grumpiness continued today but then tonight I went to play platform tennis. I played well, had a beer with some friends and came home vowing to just put it behind me and be happy because it’s frankly boring to be in a bad mood. But then the effing garage door broke and now …..
Waiter – cheque please. I’m done. I’m officially giving myself another couple days to feel like crap and bemoan the patheticness of my life.
Then, I’ll get my head out of my ass, remember how great my life really is. I’ll think of my girls and their crazy support this weekend. I’ll think of how much fun I had at the concert with my friend Jodi and my new friends from the ‘hood!
And I’ll take my kid for picnic in the park like he had tonight with his favourite babysitter, Sarah – who hugged me when my garage door broke. It’s the little things. And I have a lot of little things which add up to one big, gigantic pile of awesome. And I’ll remember that…in a couple more days.
Sara- I get this and we all need to feel sorry for ourselves at times! I live with teenagers and love them more than life itself but crave the odd moment on my own or with one other. The passport story killed me – that is just too much. I have two passport stories for you- may post them- they are a bit embarrassing to admit but funny
Yes! I know what you mean when you say that the kids feed off our moods. That’s why bad days just seem to get worse and worse, and then you reset the next day and wonder what the big deal was.
Yes! You deserve some time to focus on just you and not Will. That’s what keeps you the interesting person that you are. And also what keeps you sane.
Hope you get some just Sara time in the very near future.
thanks guys! You’re all awesome….hey the garage door magically worked this am…a sign of things to come?!?!?
Hugs Sarah. We all have bad days/weekends and wish for time to ourselves.
I hope you can get that door fixed at no charge!
Ugh Sara. Such a complete bummer.
We had a night planned with all 3 kids gone. I had 2 end up back home.
I was pissed. I just didn’t want to deal with them at all for a day. A night. A morning.
Selfish? maybe.
Necessary? definitely.
It sucks REALLY bad that we don’t live closer.
I think we really could have used each other this weekend.
For what it’s worth – mine didn’t get any better either.
{{{HUGS}}}
everyone is entitled to one every so often, go for it! you won’t get any resistance from me. but have a nice glass of wine after and look forward to your good times cuz there will be lots!
Sending a big hug your way. I’ve had plenty of those days – more than I care to admit. Sounds like you need to get through the bad to get to the good.
Sarah, I totally know how you feel. Every one of us feels miserable once in a while, and we’re all entitled to our own feelings. The important thing is that you know, deep down, that your life is good.
As for feeling like you want the focus to be on you for once, we all get that. And it’s important to make sure that you make that happen regularly, too.
As my mom wouldv’e said, “keep the faith!”