It’s been a week since my epic meltdown, breaking point. And I’ve felt fine. Good actually. Which leads me to believe that part of this whole sad rollercoaster is PMS related. Right after I wrote that blog, I felt a weight off…and I got my period. (TMI – sorry). This has followed a similar pattern where right after I get it, my sanity comes back and for a week or so, I’m my old self. Then the slide starts. The week before I get it? I’m insane.
So. I did what I said I was going to do. I went to the doctor and I’m going back on my meds and we’re going to try and flatten out these highs and lows. And I’m feeling really good about it. And..my sister offered to take Will so I could head south and get some true Vitamin D…and I just booked it. I’m off to Cuba. Now if I could have a repeat of last time, that would be sweet…but it’s not what I’m after. I want to lie in the sun, drink beer, read books and sleep. I leave three weeks today.
Other things that are making me happy?
Well – he’s one thing. And he’s killing me with his ‘happy/mean’ face routine that he’s pulling all the time. I laugh so hard that he just starts laughing…
I give you MEAN (with a touch of the giggles)
Followed by…HAPPY
And our new favourite is imitating the kitty litter commercial with the cat holding his breath…yes his cheeks should be puffed out…but he does it this way, and I’m down with it.
Do you know the one I’m talking about??
Okay come on…you knew what he meant.
Anyways guys. Thanks for all the support and kind words etc this week. I’m getting help and it’ll all be good and in the meantime….Will can continue to reflect his mother’s ever changing moods with the ‘mean/happy’ gig.
Oh p.s. another thing that makes me really happy – Katie Segal winning the Golden Globe for Sons of Anarchy…please watch it. You won’t regret it!
Thanks Stacey!! So sweet of you!
Hi Sara;
It makes me feel better to know that there are people like you in this world who can be so very honest and vulnerable with theirselves and – in your case- the public. Thank-you.
thanks dudes…it feels good to take a bit of control of a life where I feel like I have none.
You ROCK! Way to take charge of your life and find solutions. Most people spend half there time complaining about being miserable instead of thinking it through and then doing something about it! You are an inspiration to all! Is there a Golden Globe for that?
xo
Sara! good girl.
Love the happy mean face. That little boy is growing up, btw.
Please know how many women in their 40’s have this up and down around pms and periods. @#$%%^^^ roller coaster. You are smart to get help and give yourself some treats
Have a great time in Cuba!!!! Love that for you.
smart girl. good girl.
Cuba???
Nice. My mom is there right now. She called to tell me how absolutely fantastically amazing it is.
SOO glad things are on the upswing and your feeling good about where things are!!
(Also – Cuyler LOOOVES the Ducoral/travellers diarrhea commercial, where the cartoon guy gets shits while scuba diving. The surprised face the guys give makes Cuy howl laughing.)
I’m glad you’re feeling better!
I’m right there with you with the PMS thing. Jen has posted about his a few time too. Perimenopause (gasp!), or stress (possible to likely for me).
I noticed the pattern at least 2 years ago, and the severity has risen and fallen. Last year I went to a naturopath, did a cleanse, changed my diet, took some vitamins and had acupuncture, and…that’s it (lol) and things got better. Until I stopped. I’m pretty sure the acupuncture was the main thing that helped, but alas, like everything up here in the Great White North, I have to drive more than an hour and I can’t during the school year.
I had the moodiness, tears and physical symptoms too. Boobs so sore that they felt like they were on fire! If my kids bumped me by accident – watch out! No hugs either. They actually knew my mantra…”Don’t tough Mommy’s boobs”.
Cuba Libre Baby! (and Montreal in the spring, right Tracey)
I’m so glad you’re feeling better these days, lady. And Cuba? That’s so freaking awesome… I’m trying very hard not to be jealous. (Failing at it.)
Good to identify patterns… and I’m glad you’ve seen your doctor. Better, and better, I say… yay!! xox