It’s that time of year again! Summer! Walk for Autism! Yes…both of these things BUT nope I mean Father’s Day. I’m fairly sure that this is the last year of the ‘simple’ Father’s Day for us. He knows he doesn’t have a dad, but I’m quite sure he doesn’t ‘get’ it – yet. But, he’s a smart cookie – I’m anticipating the questions will be rolling off his tongue soon.
This weekend – Will has started announcing that he’s alone. ‘I no have no sister and no brother.’ It caught me off guard the first time but it’s now becoming habitual when he sees his buddies siblings. I say ‘but you have cousins’ and he starts smiling and rhymes them off. He went through a phase of this with dads as well – but that has fallen by the wayside for the time being.
Hopefully someday I’ll have a meaningful relationship with a man…and hopefully, he’ll be a father so Will could have siblings and a dad. BUT, I reread my blog from last year where I was talking about what Will was missing and I’m in a bit of a different head space now. I CAN enough for him. Why the change? I think of a couple of friends who were raised by an awesome single mom, who are just the type of men that I hope Will grows up to be. I attribute it to feedback from a slew of you guys who have told me about what a positive experience you had being raised by single moms. So thank you!
And maybe it’s not just me whose coming around to all this single mother’ness….I got an invite to Will’s Fathers Day party at school this year! Thanks teachers!
Oh smartmama…I’m so sorry to hear that – what a hard loss for both of you. I’ll be thinking of you on Sunday!
My son is 16 and this will be our first Father’s Day without his Dad and my husband as he passed away unexpectedly not very long ago. I, too, have gone through wondering if I am enough especially during this vulnerable teenage time. However, when I think it through rationally, I realize that my son is lucky to have his Mom. No disrespect to my husband who loved his son very much but I have always been very close to my son and I always was and am a better role model.
Good for you, Sara. You absolutely can and ARE enough. Will is one lucky little boy.
hahaha – I’m actually not going Nanc! My dad and stepmom are going to be ‘representing’…I’m off to Montreal for the Autism Walk. But I do love that Will is calling it the Mother’s Day party!
Sara, I just love that you got invited to the Father’s day thing at school. Now what are you going to wear? It will be a very handsome ratio. There will likely be some single dads. Giddyup.
happy father’s day, xn