Happy Fathers Day Will’s Father!

By now, you all know my feelings on these Hallmark’y Holidays.  I don’t like them.  Enough said.  That being said, today is the big day for the big guys.  Not only is it the final day of the U.S. Open – prime time AND at Pebble Beach, it’s Father’s Day!!!

The past week at Will’s school has been all things ‘daddy’ or in Will’s case ‘Grandpa’.  It’s actually been very interesting.  All of a sudden – everything is ‘daddy’.  Pictures in books of babies and a parent – it’s all ‘baby’ and ‘daddy’.  I’m actually glad for it.  I want him to get that they exist.  This week if he saw a baby and called him Will and then pointed to a grown up and said ‘daddy’, I would just say – Will, you don’t have a daddy but you have a mommy who thinks you’re awesome.  And it’s a start.  A start of a lifetime of these conversations – but I was glad for it.

On Father’s Day, Will and I have a tradition – now in it’s second year.  I get some blue balloons and we release them in the air and watch them float away.  Will panics that his balloon is gone and I take that second to officially say thank you.  I think of Will’s Father every single day.  I thank him (or yes, sometime curse him because come ON those dramatic tantrums have to come from his genes…) in my mind constantly.  

For what?

For giving me the chance to experience the greatest happiness of my life.

For making me experience one of the lowest points in my life, battling it and winning.  And in winning that battle, making me know myself better than I ever have before.  And now that I know myself?  Well just maybe some day, Will will have a daddy. 

For giving me, my family, my friends and anyone that knows Will mulitple reasons to smile – because he just is ‘that kid’.

 For giving me the chance to expand my already incredible circle of friends and family.

And I thank Will’s father for having really strong swimmers!!   Because, while I’m fully aware that I’m raising him alone for now, I’m also aware that half of Will’s genetic make up is his.  And so far – we’ve created a healthy, smart, sensitive, hilarious kid whom I love with every ounce of my being.

So Will’s Father – THANKS!  And I hope everyone had a good one AND let’s celebrate that there are no more of these effing ‘holidays’ until next Valentines Day!  Sweeet!!!

I plan on taking a picture of Will every year releasing those balloons and 16 years from now, when I hope Will will sit down for a beer with the man who allowed us to be together, I want to give him an album of these pictures so he can see how this kid has grown to be the man he is.