This is the post that no blogger ever wants to write. This is the post that no blogger thinks will ever come.
This is the goodbye post.
Her Bad Mother’s Mother’Hood is closing up shop, at least for the time being. It’s been a difficult couple of months, as many of you know, and I’ve come very close to quitting blogging entirely: too many challenges, too much heartache, too much emotional energy being drained away. Too much, it felt sometimes, to keep writing. Too, too much.
It’s hard work, being a mother. It’s the hardest work you’ll ever do. But sometimes, it’s even harder when you’re living out your motherhood on the screen, when you’re constantly analysing and recounting and reliving your challenges through the written word. It’s also wonderful to do this, of course – it provides unparalleled insight into one’s own experience – but still. Hard. All the more so for me, given the volume of writing and busybodying that I do, and the unique challenges of these past couple of months…
Which is to say, something had to give, and the thing that I’m giving up is this, the Mother’Hood. Maybe temporarily, maybe a bit longer than temporarily – in any case, it’s something that I have to do, for my own wellbeing. I have to keep loving writing, I have to keep wanting to write, and to keep that love and that desire alive I have to maintain a balance. So, for now, I’m choosing to slow things down a bit, and allow myself the time and space to enjoy my home blog, and to tinker with other beloved projects, and to experiment with more creative writing.
I’ll miss you, but know that I’m still out here, I’m still touring the hood, I’m still basking in the warmth and support and love and humour that defines the Canadian momosphere. I’m just relinquishing my UrbanMom’s post as guide to that sphere. I’m still walking beside you, enjoying.
Come visit me at my home, sometime. And stay tuned for news about what exciting feature will replace the HBM Mother’Hood Tour – it’s certain to be good!