“Mommy finally finished her doctor show on Netflix. She’s sad now.” This was the synopsis of our weekend that my son relayed to his father after watching me reach for the tissues at the end of a very, very long binge on television deliciousness. I had watched all the episodes of Grey’s Anatomy from the beginning and relived every joyful and sad moment of one of my favourite indulgences. I got to thinking that being a mom is an awful lot like being on Grey’s Anatomy (and not just because they say “seriously” a lot, like I do every single day of my life.)
As a mom, you’re someone’s person … forever. On Grey’s, being someone’s person means you are the one who is called in the event of a murder to help drag the corpse across the living room floor. As a mom, being someone’s person means cleaning up barf on sick days, listening to recorders at Christmas concerts and chaperoning field trips to noisy places. You unconditionally love the small child who drags all sorts of things across the living room floor, because you are his person.
It’s a tough gig and sometimes you have to dance it out just to stay sane. Some days you need to harken back to your pre-kids nightclub days and shake your yoga pants clad butt around the kitchen because it’s simply to early to drink. Your kids and neighbours might not understand, but there are occasions where dancing it out is necessary.
There are those moments when you are trying to reduce your kid’s screen time through conversations about the school day and it feels like they would rather be playing Minecraft than relaying a play by play about their spelling test. It can be incredibly frustrating and demoralizing. You’re standing in front of them, asking for some attention, and it’s very Meredith asking McDreamy “Pick me, choose me, love me.” all full of vulnerability and hope. It can be sad.
As much as the end of my Netflix binge of Grey’s Anatomy had me sobbing quietly on the couch, it doesn’t compare to all the happy tears that motherhood has given me over the years. Parenting and Grey’s both make me cry with embarrassing regularity, but I’m always on the edge of my seat, excited to see what comes next. Until the next episode…
Do you ever feel like your life is like a television drama?
Anna Rosenblum Palmer says
Sure thing. Have you seen Friday Night Lights? That was a great binge watch. My kids were excited that I emerged from my cocoon after those 5 seasons!